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It has been so long since I celebrate Aidilfitri with peace and ease. The last I remember was before Mak left.

Even so that I only left with Bapak but things do change and it is not the same at all.

I know some are even worse still compare to me. Why I felt that I do not know.

I have so many people around me but why I yet still feel lonely?

I am lost; I do not know the true meaning of Aidilfitri.

News spread so fast and I am tired for being the one who have to answer to all. Why people seem not to understand my situation? Why am I being marked to be the bad person?

I do not want it to be this way either but do I have a choice? It’s not mine anyway.

I just hope things will be better for her and may she have peace in her heart. I hope she will regret one day that she ever gave me wrong accusations.

Part of me missed her, we ever been good friends before.

Love,

Ella

Its me!, Tired and shag face...

A lot been happening and some are sort of mentally disturbing but yeah I always hope things would be better the next day...

I have got my in advanced birthday thanks to both Mr & Mrs Gonzo! kekeke

This fella is keeping me company every single night! Kuromi Note!!!! kekeke

or and I missed my ladies, the laughter and the tiredness and the 'merepeks'...

I really cannot wait for the next outing! for now all I have to do is WAIT!

I woke up sleepily today, and I know I am going to be late! And true, my transport was waiting when I went down. Even though I am late I still managed to whip a meal for lunch, I cook macaroni and cheese with hotdog and veggies! Yummy!!

Me and my girlfriends are involved in our 1^st ever project! And I was damn excited about it. I really hope we can excel and show that we can do it. So Put, don’t forget our date today. :o)

Basically things have been pretty good for me except that yesterday I was a bit hectic after running here and there. What makes matter worse was a phone call from my accountant saying that I should have not done what I have done. I told her I was merely following instruction, she was shouting over the phone to me! I told her ‘Fine, there is no need to argue I will called my in charge’ I text Jas and told her the story and also inform me that I am truly hurt. She said she will settle and asked me to cool off. After which the accountant called again and inform it is settle.

I felt like telling her ‘hey M, thanks for making my day, it really boost me up!’ in a sarcastic way of course! She is one damn idiotic woman! Problems will come if your work got to do with her.

I have cast aside my yesterday story, and hope today will be better. I have to settle a few issue today, I will be busy again. So to my girlfriends, please bear again with me if I reply to your email like snail today.

Alright, I got to go back to work now. Oh! I nearly forgot, to all Muslims Selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan and to those who knew me, I seek forgiveness if I ever hurt, scold or do something that you might think I should have not.

Love

Ella

It’s Monday and for a start I am having the blues already. I am writing this while working. I am a bit free even so I have things to check, My AM is not here, she went over to head office.

I need a boost to start my engine this morning after an exhausting day yesterday! 11hours of non- stop standing! By the time I reach home, my leg is super strain and pain feel like hanging it up.

Yesterday was not a good experience; he was a bit agitated due to some reason which he did not mention to me. We seldom talk as I was all the way outside in the Film Village while he was inside. And he did complain that I was doing things slow, but I felt like telling him that ‘can’t you see I need to recharged my battery?!’

Something that happens coincidently which makes me ponder, was it true? Was it fate? Hah! Put that aside for now as yet I have more important things to do: my ‘project’, hoping that I am not too tired after work today.

I better off now doing my monthly leave report before they even asked for it.

Hope you people have great days ahead and enjoy the blues that the Monday gave it to you! Hahaha!

P/s: Audrey, Jlo n Nina – I found my New Moon Book already, it was all along in a box under my table at my office! Hahahaha…

I woke up with a startled this morning when I saw it was already bright! I have guess so much that I am late.

Have a quick shower and get ready. Cut a slice of cheesecake for my breakfast and off I go. Well I took taxi, lucky it’s Saturday, no peak hours. Received a sms from Putri ‘babe, you kerja tak?’, I think she had the feeling that I am late! Hehehe.

Now while eating my breakfast, typing this blog and listening to ‘hush hush’ by the PCD. I ponder on the things that happen to me yesterday night after the meeting. Why it is so hard to let go? And what happen to me? I guess I have changed after so many hiccups with men. Chit told me that I have changed too.

I really cannot bother with all that at this moment; I have other interesting things to learn and other things to establish with 2 of my partners. Yes, I have been very ambitious right now. I want to work hard on my career and my business. Oh and not forgetting, having a collection of books that I like, going to Gold Coast with Audrey & Jlo. So other things I have put it aside at the corner of my mind.

Alright back to reality, now I am going to have my morning puff puff and then 100% fully concentrate on my work! And why oh why those Filipino people have their name so long? It’s confusing me to check their data!

p/s: I can’t finish my cheesecake! Blueckkkk….

So what did I do during the holidays? Well off to snow city and of course zoo! ;o)

Thanks to those who make it happen! The fun just never ends… a good Laugh in everything!

The fall that I encounter in snow city, the scream down the slide and the help of the girls to overcome my fear of snakes! Well I still am not strong enough.

At snow city! :o)

At the Zoo! :o)

Mr Gonzo & his long lost friend! :op

The verdict? Fun Fun and more Fun!

Love you people to bits and pieces…

Ella

Things will never be the same again; I have to stand my right and be a bit rebellious. It’s been for 17^th years for hell ship that I have gone through. It have to put a stop to it somehow.

Apologize to some individual that I might hurt during this torment season which happens yesterday. I guess I am a problematic person after all. Sorry for hearing me cry and making it a disappointment for today.

I wish I am dead now or even do not exist.

I love my family but they make me hate myself. I love my friends but some friends are not with me during my down days. To those who are, you are the best that I ever have. You people know who you are.

Ella L

From Expo to SG Flyers to Wheelock Place and back home, that was the schedule plan by Mr Gonzo .

Today was a very exciting day for me but things turn sour when the moment I reach home. I do not know if this is fated for me or it is just my luck to be living in hell! I thought people always say ‘Rumahku Syurgaku’…. To me it’s bullshit!

Is it wrong to find more income? Is it wrong to save more money? Is it wrong to shop? For god sake! Do I even have a privacy of my own? Why must I me tormented by stupid idiotic people!

If they have not realized this, I am not a housekeeper! Another word is MAID! What is the point of having 3 ladies in the house but most of the time I am doing the work on weekends? What is the little lady doing at home? Sit down and shake leg? I tell you this, one fine day if I walked out of this hell you and yourself going to suffer even worse then me. And I have made up my mind; give me 3 more months I am going to find a place, a place that I can call heaven!

Love from a tormented lady,

Ella

I have been missing for quite a long time, well not sure if you missed me? I was enjoying my solitude moment until I figure it out that I have to put a stop to it and get back to reality again. So here I am hoping not to ‘MIA’ anymore.

Oh yeah, for now my whole week is full basically due to some ‘project’ that I have been doing. I will be only free after 5pm! Gosh no rest even!

Another thing I am indulging in at the moment is KUROMI!!! No idea what is that? Please refer below! ;o)

Another amusing thing that keeps me entertain is…..